I awoke with a start. The room was dark. I knew I had heard a sound, something that startled me, seemingly shook me awake. I listened. I heard the lulling, rhythmic sound of my sweet husband sleeping. Evidentially he had not heard it. I continued to listen. Nothing. I listened for a few moments longer, then rolled over on my side and slowly dozed off back to sleep. A lighter sleep this time.
There it was again! I heard it and suddenly knew exactly where it came from this time. I hesitated to even admit I knew where it came from. It came from ME. I had farted. In my relaxed, comfy state it jumped out, waking me. I listened; hubby stirred. "You OK?" he asked. "Yeah, fine." My face was pink, but he could not see it in the dark. Fortunately my midnight toot-fest did not wake him, at least not this time.
It happens randomly. It wakes me up, and I always wait and listen to see if it woke him up. If he's awake I say, "Sorry." Believe it or not, Hubster and I are pretty private about that sort of thing. So, you can imagine how embarrassed I get when it's in the middle of the night and unexpectedly rings the bell that cannot be unrung!
While I've laid there listening to see if Hubster heard me, I've often wondered and thought... When I was single, I don't remember waking myself up in the middle of the night with such sounds. Or maybe I did, and just never figured out what the sound was that woke me up. OR maybe it's just because NOW I have Hubster in the bed to witness my toot uncommon.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
65 a week.
Disclaimer: The following blog post is rated PG13 and may contain curse words or ideas that you do not agree with. In the event that you do decide to read this post anyway, and are insulted by its content, then I was not talking to you. All scripture quoted is from the New American Standard Version.
A couple years ago. A few years ago. OK, fine. Several years ago (about 15 ) I was a counselor at Ponderosa Bible Camp in Mentone, Alabama. One of the memory verses we worked so hard to teach our kids, and of course, by the end of the summer was completely ingrained in my brain, heart and soul, was Ephesians 6:12 "For our struggle is NOT against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the forces of darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places." The verse after that, verse 13, tells us to "take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist the evil day [Satan himself], and having done everything to stand firm, stand." Which emphatically tells us to continue standing, standing strong, standing firm. (Verse 14 goes on to tell us exactly WHAT the armor of God really is, which I will save for another blog post.) I had no idea how so many years later that verse would resonate with me, how it would empower me to know that my life's struggle is against Satan and his evil forces, that my struggle is NOT against God. John 10:10 reminds us that "The Thief comes ONLY to steal, kill and destroy; I [Jesus Christ] come so that they [you and me] may have life, and have it ABUNDANTLY."
I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels Satan's attacks lately. Satan attacks the strong, not the weak. He already has the weak. But, I very spiritually strong. It's true. I recognize Satan's attacks and call him out on them every time, which pisses him off. (Here come some cuss words, so if you are easily offended, you'd best stop reading...) Satan is a bastard. He does not seem to understand that I WILL and DO stand face to face with him in each battle. And, in each attack, each battle I have Jesus Christ and a legion of angels behind me. Satan does not seem to understand or recognize that I ALREADY HAVE VICTORY. He still advances with his life situations that dare me to falter in my faith.
Recession. The Stock Market (and other markets) fell last year, almost bottoming out, having a major, negative effect on the country and world. The economy (usually said with a sad, negative tone in reference to "lack of work/jobs.") Swine flu. H1N1 virus. Lack of jobs, sickness, disease, death. Man! No wonder our nation is on drugs to get them through life. If I let myself take all that in and really BELIEVE that it will effect me, find me, and take over my life, I'd just curl up in a dark corner in a fetal position, suck my thumb... and die! However, I am a Child of the Living God who has promised me abundant life! We have really struggled this past year, almost for a year and a half now. We lost almost $60K last year. Seriously. When the Markets fell, we lost about $25K that Brandon was trading with, using to create our income of about $35K. There was nothing that he could have done to prevent that. He is methodical and calculating and super smart. Nothing could have been done. We lived with bickering, divorced grandparents and tried to keep to ourselves in the basement. Brandon had two jobs. I moved to Kentucky and took on a job and lived with a friend. Brandon and I were physically separated while he brought in two full time incomes and I brought in one full time income. Our marriage has not suffered, it continues to strengthen... Then he got a new job and moved in with me again (yay!) and our friend. We decided we should move closer to his work (to save $200 in gas due to commuting). We finally found a place that would allow us to have our cats and moved to London, KY. I quit my job in Williamsburg (so I would not have to commute) and spent all summer looking for a job close to home that would give me fulfilment, and I found one. Then about three weeks ago, Brandon was fired from his job, which we believe God RELEASED him from, due to the stress it put on him and on our marriage. These are just some highlights. I won't go into the details of the daily conflicts and struggles that came with each situation, but you can imagine.
Financially it has been really tight, or lean. "Lean times," my husband says. Yes, lean it is. Time to be lean and LEAN on Christ! I have often said that I am soooooo blessed and grateful that I am a Child of God, because if I was not, I cannot even begin to imagine how truly horrible the past year and a half would have been if we had not totally leaned on Christ!! Since we belong to Him, He has truly taken care of us. Though our finances have been extremely tight, we still have everything we need and occasionally even a little extra.
Actually, I am amazed at how little we do need. Sometimes, for me, the struggle is not to keep to our extremely tight budget, but my struggle is sometimes with self denial, that is - telling myself that I really don't NEED this or that. For the past four months now we have been allowing ourselves only $65 a week for a variable budget. The variable budget being: groceries, household items, hygiene items, pet needs, leisure/entertainment (movies, eating out, etc.)... gas is not included in the variable budget. Yes, I have to be very organized. Yes, I have to plan out meals and cook often. Yes, we take our lunches to work. No, we have not had Starbucks coffee in a long time. We don't buy something until we need it. Imagine that concept! I don't get another tube of tooth paste until the one we are using only has about 2 uses left. AND! Because I have been so methodical at planning meals and using ALL the food we buy, we have had much, much less food waste! I hate wasting food. When I plan for meals/groceries, I plan so that whatever I make will make other meals. For example, when I buy a whole chicken, I know we can get a least six meals out of it; it will feed two people three times.
Then, Brandon loses his job. It was a Monday. He called me at work. I know he hated to tell me. But he did. At first, I was sick, then tears came. I thought about that $65 a week and thought how could it possibly be less. Our cars, though we don't have a monthly payent, are beginning to break down slowy and need repair. I thought, how will we ever afford/buy gifts for Christmas. Then I got mad. I called out Satan, and stood toe to toe, nose to nose with him. I spit in his face and reminded him that he is a yellow-bellied bastard who will remain under my foot. Tuesday came. Brandon applied to and had an interview with a company. By Friday he was hired! Take that Satan!! You will NOT touch my home, marriage, husband or life!!! With his new job comes less stress, benefits, and God's abundance! Now, we are still in lean times. We still stick to $65 a week, and are believing God for growth in our finances; there are still projects that will need tending to, car repairs mainly, and money for Christmas gifts and a few other little things here and there that manage to really add up. BUT! Know that God is glorified! When we have told people that Brandon was hired to a new job within a week of being released from his former job, most people are amazed and say, "In THIS economy? That's a miracle!" Yes, it is. It's a miracle because we are Children of God. He is our Father who loves his children and cares for us deeply. He gives us life and gives it more abundantly.
I've been preaching this morning. Preaching to myself, mostly. When I write about God's blessings and abundance, despite our struggles, I am encouraged. I enjoying sharing with others how, no matter what the struggle, GOD is a good God. Satan is the Destroyer, but Christ is the Giver of Life!
I enjoy getting hand written letters in the mail. I would love to get notes of encouragement in the mail from those of you who read our story and are encouraged or who are praying for us. I know many, many of you have been praying for us and I have felt the spiritual power behind those prayers! If you write to me, I'll write back. Promise. Right now, I only have 4 stamps left. So, for now, it will be the first four who write who will get letters in response! If any more of you write, I'll be believing God for more stamps for response! (Serioulsy!) Also, if you want me to come speak to a Bible Study, women's group, church, youth group etc., I would love to do that. I promise I will NOT cuss. =]
Here is our address:
The Wilhites, Brandon & Stacey
1619 Keavy Rd., Apt. B
London, KY 40744
A couple years ago. A few years ago. OK, fine. Several years ago (about 15 ) I was a counselor at Ponderosa Bible Camp in Mentone, Alabama. One of the memory verses we worked so hard to teach our kids, and of course, by the end of the summer was completely ingrained in my brain, heart and soul, was Ephesians 6:12 "For our struggle is NOT against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the forces of darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places." The verse after that, verse 13, tells us to "take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist the evil day [Satan himself], and having done everything to stand firm, stand." Which emphatically tells us to continue standing, standing strong, standing firm. (Verse 14 goes on to tell us exactly WHAT the armor of God really is, which I will save for another blog post.) I had no idea how so many years later that verse would resonate with me, how it would empower me to know that my life's struggle is against Satan and his evil forces, that my struggle is NOT against God. John 10:10 reminds us that "The Thief comes ONLY to steal, kill and destroy; I [Jesus Christ] come so that they [you and me] may have life, and have it ABUNDANTLY."
I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels Satan's attacks lately. Satan attacks the strong, not the weak. He already has the weak. But, I very spiritually strong. It's true. I recognize Satan's attacks and call him out on them every time, which pisses him off. (Here come some cuss words, so if you are easily offended, you'd best stop reading...) Satan is a bastard. He does not seem to understand that I WILL and DO stand face to face with him in each battle. And, in each attack, each battle I have Jesus Christ and a legion of angels behind me. Satan does not seem to understand or recognize that I ALREADY HAVE VICTORY. He still advances with his life situations that dare me to falter in my faith.
Recession. The Stock Market (and other markets) fell last year, almost bottoming out, having a major, negative effect on the country and world. The economy (usually said with a sad, negative tone in reference to "lack of work/jobs.") Swine flu. H1N1 virus. Lack of jobs, sickness, disease, death. Man! No wonder our nation is on drugs to get them through life. If I let myself take all that in and really BELIEVE that it will effect me, find me, and take over my life, I'd just curl up in a dark corner in a fetal position, suck my thumb... and die! However, I am a Child of the Living God who has promised me abundant life! We have really struggled this past year, almost for a year and a half now. We lost almost $60K last year. Seriously. When the Markets fell, we lost about $25K that Brandon was trading with, using to create our income of about $35K. There was nothing that he could have done to prevent that. He is methodical and calculating and super smart. Nothing could have been done. We lived with bickering, divorced grandparents and tried to keep to ourselves in the basement. Brandon had two jobs. I moved to Kentucky and took on a job and lived with a friend. Brandon and I were physically separated while he brought in two full time incomes and I brought in one full time income. Our marriage has not suffered, it continues to strengthen... Then he got a new job and moved in with me again (yay!) and our friend. We decided we should move closer to his work (to save $200 in gas due to commuting). We finally found a place that would allow us to have our cats and moved to London, KY. I quit my job in Williamsburg (so I would not have to commute) and spent all summer looking for a job close to home that would give me fulfilment, and I found one. Then about three weeks ago, Brandon was fired from his job, which we believe God RELEASED him from, due to the stress it put on him and on our marriage. These are just some highlights. I won't go into the details of the daily conflicts and struggles that came with each situation, but you can imagine.
Financially it has been really tight, or lean. "Lean times," my husband says. Yes, lean it is. Time to be lean and LEAN on Christ! I have often said that I am soooooo blessed and grateful that I am a Child of God, because if I was not, I cannot even begin to imagine how truly horrible the past year and a half would have been if we had not totally leaned on Christ!! Since we belong to Him, He has truly taken care of us. Though our finances have been extremely tight, we still have everything we need and occasionally even a little extra.
Actually, I am amazed at how little we do need. Sometimes, for me, the struggle is not to keep to our extremely tight budget, but my struggle is sometimes with self denial, that is - telling myself that I really don't NEED this or that. For the past four months now we have been allowing ourselves only $65 a week for a variable budget. The variable budget being: groceries, household items, hygiene items, pet needs, leisure/entertainment (movies, eating out, etc.)... gas is not included in the variable budget. Yes, I have to be very organized. Yes, I have to plan out meals and cook often. Yes, we take our lunches to work. No, we have not had Starbucks coffee in a long time. We don't buy something until we need it. Imagine that concept! I don't get another tube of tooth paste until the one we are using only has about 2 uses left. AND! Because I have been so methodical at planning meals and using ALL the food we buy, we have had much, much less food waste! I hate wasting food. When I plan for meals/groceries, I plan so that whatever I make will make other meals. For example, when I buy a whole chicken, I know we can get a least six meals out of it; it will feed two people three times.
Then, Brandon loses his job. It was a Monday. He called me at work. I know he hated to tell me. But he did. At first, I was sick, then tears came. I thought about that $65 a week and thought how could it possibly be less. Our cars, though we don't have a monthly payent, are beginning to break down slowy and need repair. I thought, how will we ever afford/buy gifts for Christmas. Then I got mad. I called out Satan, and stood toe to toe, nose to nose with him. I spit in his face and reminded him that he is a yellow-bellied bastard who will remain under my foot. Tuesday came. Brandon applied to and had an interview with a company. By Friday he was hired! Take that Satan!! You will NOT touch my home, marriage, husband or life!!! With his new job comes less stress, benefits, and God's abundance! Now, we are still in lean times. We still stick to $65 a week, and are believing God for growth in our finances; there are still projects that will need tending to, car repairs mainly, and money for Christmas gifts and a few other little things here and there that manage to really add up. BUT! Know that God is glorified! When we have told people that Brandon was hired to a new job within a week of being released from his former job, most people are amazed and say, "In THIS economy? That's a miracle!" Yes, it is. It's a miracle because we are Children of God. He is our Father who loves his children and cares for us deeply. He gives us life and gives it more abundantly.
I've been preaching this morning. Preaching to myself, mostly. When I write about God's blessings and abundance, despite our struggles, I am encouraged. I enjoying sharing with others how, no matter what the struggle, GOD is a good God. Satan is the Destroyer, but Christ is the Giver of Life!
I enjoy getting hand written letters in the mail. I would love to get notes of encouragement in the mail from those of you who read our story and are encouraged or who are praying for us. I know many, many of you have been praying for us and I have felt the spiritual power behind those prayers! If you write to me, I'll write back. Promise. Right now, I only have 4 stamps left. So, for now, it will be the first four who write who will get letters in response! If any more of you write, I'll be believing God for more stamps for response! (Serioulsy!) Also, if you want me to come speak to a Bible Study, women's group, church, youth group etc., I would love to do that. I promise I will NOT cuss. =]
Here is our address:
The Wilhites, Brandon & Stacey
1619 Keavy Rd., Apt. B
London, KY 40744
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
The Robertson Zen Feel
It's blog time again...
I'm up at 4-something-er-other in the morning. Brandon and I both are. We were awake, so we just got up. And, since I've had a blog post floating around in my head for the past week, I decided I'd type it out. We don't have 'net yet, so I'll type this, save it.. and cut 'n paste it later.
Finally, after 13 months of living with family and friends, we are in our very own place!! Whoo hoo!! We have moved to London, Kentucky. We moved closer to Brandon's work, which is keeping him VERY busy, but he is enjoying it very much. I am no longer working at the dentist's office and am looking for employment here in London. I enjoyed assisting the dentist and learning MUCH about dental care (prevention is cheaper than repair!!!). However, commuting to Williamsburg every day, 5 days a week, we have learned, costs over $200 a month in gas and is worth 8 hours of drive time. So, we are trying to keep our travel very close.
We live in a two bedroom duplex, not too far off Exit 38 (off I-75), on 363 or Keavy Road, to be exact. We have not officially met our duplex neighbors, but have met some of our other neighbors (while they were having their yard sale last weekend) and they are very nice, except for their Chihuahua named Rascal, who generally seems pissed-off at our mere presence. Where is Caesar Milan when you need him?
We have a rather large yard, which is a blessing and a curse. Blessing: lotsa space and room, even the posibility of getting a dog, room for kids to play (I'll get to that later...No, I'm not pregnant.) Curse: it's gotta be maintained, that is Brandon's gotta mow it, a chore he has taken on. And, we've gotta get a mower. We have a really nice deck that leads out to the back yard. So, we plan to enjoy that space: cook-outs, enjoying morning coffee, etc.
Yes, we are in our own space. It's glorious. I forgot how much I loved having my/our own place. My domestic gene has kicked into high gear again. I'm enjoying cooking for us and setting up our house, which brings me to our current major issue. Yes, we are in our own space and yes, that space is piled HIGH with plastic containers, boxes... plastic containers, boxes... and more plastic containers and boxes!!! Finally, after 13 months of paying for storage, we finally have all of our stuff out of storage!! Praise God!! Now, we have the gargantuan job of sorting through all of our CRAP.
We have come to a point in our lives where we have made the decision to truly clean out. I know y'all have seen the show Clean Sweep, or something like it, where a crew comes in and helps a family totally clean out, throw out, sell, get rid of all their excess and reorganize into a clean, neat, organized Zen-form of living. Well, that's what we are doing. We call it the Robertson Zen Feel. Let me explain.
We have some very dear friends, Jessica and Tim Robertson, who were our neighbors while we lived in Winona Lake. Tim and Jessica have been missionaries in Cambodia, which thus (I believe) influences their living style: simple, Asian, clean comfy and green (as in house plants), are the adjectives I think of when I think of their living space. As Brandon and I have been cleaning out and setting up house, we will ask ourselves: Does that have the Robertson Zen Feel?? If not, then we clean out more or rearrange.
For us, to achieve the ultimate Robertson Zen Feel, have been and are going through some serious changes. Clutter grows on us. Brandon and I read a few years ago about how our nation has become pack rats and why that has come about. When our country went through the Great Depression in the 1930s, people had the mind set to save everything and reuse it. No waste. Reuse. And when they would get new stuff, they would save. Save the bag/box it came in. If it broke, save it and use the parts for something else. Then our country began to grow and grow. We are the Land of Plenty. But, even as the country grew and grows, the mind-set of “save everything” continues, thus creating excess. How many storage units did you see on your way to work this morning? The excess costs money and time and effort.
Not any more. I will not be slave to the excess and clutter in my home. I am rising up, fighting and winning the Battle of Clutter!!
As we open boxes, first we browse through the box. We look for things that we are not attached to, things that we can easily get rid of and put them in the Goodwill boxes. (No, we are not having a yard sale. Yard sales are too much work. I'd rather give my stuff to Goodwill and be done with it.) We have cleared out much, but have much more to go!
And, for me, of course, there is deeper spiritual meaning in this whole Robertson Zen Feel...
I believe that if I want the Lord to bless me with new things, I must clean out the old. I must prepare a way for His bounty. At this point in my life, I know that we are settling down and slowly preparing and making a way for children. I told Brandon the other day that if I clean out these boxes with the mind set that I am cleaning out and preparing a way for our children, then I will clean out with much fervor and enthusiasm.
Think about it for a moment. How can we expect God to give us more when what we have is piled high, cluttered, messy and thrown aside? Have you ever said to your child something like if you want that, then you need to keep your room clean... or do these chores to show me you want that. So, I am physically showing God that I am ready for my house to overflow with children. I am cleaning out the excess, the unnecessary, the clutter. No, it's not easy sometimes. I like my stuff. But, I like the simple, clean feeling more.
I could go on and on.
Once I unpack the box that has my camera and/or the box that has the USB cord for my camera, then I'll post pics of our progress.
Please keep us in your prayers as I look for work. God has ALWAYS provided for us. Our bills have always been paid. We have NEVER gone hungry. But, I know you all know the feeling... that faith feeling. The feeling that the ends might not meet, but knowing they will because He makes them meet, and then some!
Much love to all of you! Thanks for your words of encouragement, prayers and love!
More soon.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Living IN The Dream
Last weekend I sat down and wrote over 6 pages in my journal, narrating my initial week here. However, I can't seem to find the time or energy to sit down and type word for word the entry... Since so many friends and family are asking for an update... and wondering how things are going with me here on the farm and with my new job, I decided I needed to just sit down and type a general update. I have an unexpected day off this week (due to working 40 hours in 4 days...), have gotten some rest and decided that I should just sit down this morning and blog. I will post additional pics on Facebook... today or tomorrow...
Farm Life:
I am really enjoying living in the country. The mountains are beautiful!! Brandon and I live with Kristin, a dear friend and Soul Sista. Well, correction... currently I live with Kris, Brandon is still in Warsaw, IN, and will remain so until about June or July. Separation sucks. I miss him sooo badly at times that I have just sat and cried. He is my best friend, my buddy, my lover and my keel. Again, separation sucks.
I've been feeding baby goats, who are growing like weeds. Kristin and I will both be happy when they no longer need bottles, but will be sad to see them get big. I've gathered eggs and fed and watered chicks. We have our very own farm fresh eggs. If you have never had a farm fresh egg, once you have one, you will never go back. They are rich, meaty and better for you. Cholesterol in eggs comes from them sitting on the shelves; when you eat them fresh, you consume less cholesterol. We have also eaten beef from the farm, and we will soon have fresh pork! We've eaten fresh veggies that were frozen from the garden... Our goal is to be self sustaining as much as possible. There is much, much work to be done here...
The over 100 year old farm house we live in is being renovated around us. If you have ever done that you know that there is constant dust and dirt, and once you get a section clean, stuff has to be moved around and the dust goes flying again...
Yes, we are living in a "commune" of sorts. We share living space and we like it. We take care of each other and enjoy doing so. We share chores and responsibilities. No, this will not change when Brandon moves in. People keep talking about how BAD the economy is.. and how horrible "THINGS" are gonna get. First, I serve a LIVING God who cares for me intimately and gives me favor. I am NOT fearful of the economy. I refuse to live my life in fear!! or in worry... I do believe that we are doing what HE has called us to do right now.. It's not easy, but God did not say he would give us an easy life. He tells us over and over that he will give us an ABUNDANT, PROSPEROUS, YOUTHFUL life. I rest in that.
Yes, farm life is an adjustment, but nothing I can't handle. Well, we plan to "wrestle" goats this weekend, trimming hooves and medicating them (the sore spots on hooves...) So, I'll let y'all know how I handled that!! =]
New Job:
My new job has been an adjustment, of course. I am working harder than I have worked in a long time. I really enjoy assisting the dentist with patients and learning all the medical and technical specifics of dentistry. I say that I feel like I have stepped into part reality show, part Discover Channel. There is much drama and talk among the women I work with, each patient has a story as well.. then there are all the procedures I get to watch! It's constant motion and business! Go, go, go! I like being that busy because time goes by very quickly. I enjoy working with the girls there... especially since a couple of them thought I was 25!! Whoo hoo! I have learned to take good care of my teeth. Much of the dentistry work is pulling teeth (extractions) and making partials and dentures. I have huge torri (tore- eye), which is bone that sticks out from my jaw. It's a fairly common occurrence; however, if I ever needed dentures, I'd have to have an oral surgeon "chisel" my torri or excess bone off!! NO THANKS!! Anyhoo, I get to brush my teeth at work! and I am learning MUCH!! everyday!!
Oh, the cats are doing well. It took Tilly about a week to chill out. She is still a bit apprehensive, but is doing better. Mareth-Dale just loves everything and everybody and is seemingly unafraid of anything.
Thank you for your continued prayers, thoughts and concerns and Brandon and I must be apart and as we rebuild our finances. I can feel your prayers, love and support!!
Once last thought:
I titled this "Living IN the Dream" because that is what I am doing now. I have come to the realization that I am living IN my dream... I am building my dream right here, right now. It hit me the very first morning I stepped out onto the porch with my mug of coffee and was staring face to face with a mountain ridge; mist was rolling down off of it and the sun was newly risen. I felt the Holy Spirit's presence and knew that I am standing IN my dream now. THIS is what we have been praying for. THIS is what I MUST do and what I MUST build. God is good. May His Holy Name be Praised!!!
Farm Life:
I am really enjoying living in the country. The mountains are beautiful!! Brandon and I live with Kristin, a dear friend and Soul Sista. Well, correction... currently I live with Kris, Brandon is still in Warsaw, IN, and will remain so until about June or July. Separation sucks. I miss him sooo badly at times that I have just sat and cried. He is my best friend, my buddy, my lover and my keel. Again, separation sucks.
I've been feeding baby goats, who are growing like weeds. Kristin and I will both be happy when they no longer need bottles, but will be sad to see them get big. I've gathered eggs and fed and watered chicks. We have our very own farm fresh eggs. If you have never had a farm fresh egg, once you have one, you will never go back. They are rich, meaty and better for you. Cholesterol in eggs comes from them sitting on the shelves; when you eat them fresh, you consume less cholesterol. We have also eaten beef from the farm, and we will soon have fresh pork! We've eaten fresh veggies that were frozen from the garden... Our goal is to be self sustaining as much as possible. There is much, much work to be done here...
The over 100 year old farm house we live in is being renovated around us. If you have ever done that you know that there is constant dust and dirt, and once you get a section clean, stuff has to be moved around and the dust goes flying again...
Yes, we are living in a "commune" of sorts. We share living space and we like it. We take care of each other and enjoy doing so. We share chores and responsibilities. No, this will not change when Brandon moves in. People keep talking about how BAD the economy is.. and how horrible "THINGS" are gonna get. First, I serve a LIVING God who cares for me intimately and gives me favor. I am NOT fearful of the economy. I refuse to live my life in fear!! or in worry... I do believe that we are doing what HE has called us to do right now.. It's not easy, but God did not say he would give us an easy life. He tells us over and over that he will give us an ABUNDANT, PROSPEROUS, YOUTHFUL life. I rest in that.
Yes, farm life is an adjustment, but nothing I can't handle. Well, we plan to "wrestle" goats this weekend, trimming hooves and medicating them (the sore spots on hooves...) So, I'll let y'all know how I handled that!! =]
New Job:
My new job has been an adjustment, of course. I am working harder than I have worked in a long time. I really enjoy assisting the dentist with patients and learning all the medical and technical specifics of dentistry. I say that I feel like I have stepped into part reality show, part Discover Channel. There is much drama and talk among the women I work with, each patient has a story as well.. then there are all the procedures I get to watch! It's constant motion and business! Go, go, go! I like being that busy because time goes by very quickly. I enjoy working with the girls there... especially since a couple of them thought I was 25!! Whoo hoo! I have learned to take good care of my teeth. Much of the dentistry work is pulling teeth (extractions) and making partials and dentures. I have huge torri (tore- eye), which is bone that sticks out from my jaw. It's a fairly common occurrence; however, if I ever needed dentures, I'd have to have an oral surgeon "chisel" my torri or excess bone off!! NO THANKS!! Anyhoo, I get to brush my teeth at work! and I am learning MUCH!! everyday!!
Oh, the cats are doing well. It took Tilly about a week to chill out. She is still a bit apprehensive, but is doing better. Mareth-Dale just loves everything and everybody and is seemingly unafraid of anything.
Thank you for your continued prayers, thoughts and concerns and Brandon and I must be apart and as we rebuild our finances. I can feel your prayers, love and support!!
Once last thought:
I titled this "Living IN the Dream" because that is what I am doing now. I have come to the realization that I am living IN my dream... I am building my dream right here, right now. It hit me the very first morning I stepped out onto the porch with my mug of coffee and was staring face to face with a mountain ridge; mist was rolling down off of it and the sun was newly risen. I felt the Holy Spirit's presence and knew that I am standing IN my dream now. THIS is what we have been praying for. THIS is what I MUST do and what I MUST build. God is good. May His Holy Name be Praised!!!
Monday, January 26, 2009
On The Road Again.
Back to the 'Burg, again.
When we moved back to Warsaw, IN in June, I had no idea we'd be headed back to the 'Burg so soon! (with in less than a year!!)
For most people, 2008 has been a rough year. For us, 2008 started out wonderfully. We were renting a cozy 3 bedroom house in Williamsburg, KY. Brandon was home, trading currencies full time from his office across the hall from our bedroom; a short commute in his robe, jammies and house shoes. I was home full time taking care of Brandon and getting taste of the full-time domestic life that I love so much.
All of that lasted until the end of May when we moved back to Warsaw, IN to work/teach at a private Christian school. We felt that it was our mission to work at the school while Brandon would continue trading, which would bring in two full time incomes, giving us a chance to save money.
The first of June we moved in with Grandma 'n Grandpa Rugs (who are divorced but still live together... just in case you are just now reading my blog. There are other posts that explain this dysfunction.. if it can truly ever be explained.), thinking we would live with them for a month at the most. We were looking to buy a house. We did not qualify for a mortgage; we looked for and found an investor, who then invested elsewhere. We looked for a co-signer...still nothing. Seven months later we are still living in the basement at G'ma 'n G'pa's.
Between September and October when the markets began to crash, we lost our investment nest of $25K. Brandon was using this money to make money for us to live off of, so basically he was "laid off." I can actually say that with a smile. I mean, let's get real. I CHOOSE to be a diamond. The more pressure there is, the more beautiful and precious I become. I refuse to let circumstance crush me. I refuse to be defeated.
John 10:10 "The Thief [Satan] comes to only to STEAL, KILL and DESTROY; I [Jesus Christ] came that they [You & Me] may have life and have it ABUNDANTLY."
So, no income from trading currencies. The school is paying about 1/3 of what was promised (which is no fault of theirs! Less students = less income for the school.. We knew this coming into it...) BUT!! BUT!! Hear me here... It just is. It is what it is. We are not bitter or angry that any of this has happened. It's just happened. Overall we are only making about 1/4 of the income that we THOUGHT we were going to make when we moved here! Crazy, huh?
Now, here is the miracle:
Our bills are always paid. We are tithing. We have a warm place to sleep. Food to eat. Cars that run. (We've been doing some serious repairs on both cars and have been able to pay cash for them both.) We were able to pay off a $1400 debt. Hackers hacked into one of our bank accounts and stole about $500 plus about $200 of over-draft charges... All has been restored and taken care of.
The Thief comes to steal, kill and destroy, but Jesus Christ came so that I can have ABUNDANT life... Though the Thief comes to hinder our financial growth, God creates miracles in our life to remind us that He takes care of us. Because if we did not belong to Him, all of this could have been much, much worse...
Arrows began pointing OUT of Warsaw...
More miracles:
I got a GOOD full time job in the Burg! Now listen to me... and listen good. Yes - I recognize that our country is experiencing "economic hard times." I hear of people being laid off right 'n left. People keep telling me that down South "jobs are scarce." HOWEVER -- hear me here... I serve a Living God! I serve a Living God who wants to PROSPER me and not to harm me, who wants to give me HOPE and a FUTURE!! (Jeremiah 29:11) I know I have His favor and he blesses us beyond measure. Therefore, I know that this job is divine. I am also believing God for a job for Brandon. If you are sceptical or cynical about him getting/find a full time job, then please keep your mouth shut. Please be sceptical in silence. The rest of you, please be in prayer about him finding a full time job down there.
Also, please be in prayer for us as Brandon and I are separated for a few months. This will NOT be fun. We hate it. But, we feel this is what has to be done to accomplish our goals at this time.
I'll be working in a dentist office doing clinical assistance and office management. I will be learning new things. I look forward to working with people and learning something that is completely different than I have ever learned before.
We plan to settle in Williamsburg. We like the quiet, small town life. Us kids who grew up in our small town fought like the dickens to get out, now... some of us fight to get back in. I'm looking forward to living close to my folks again. And, I am ready to completely settle down, save money and then start our family.
Thanks for all your love and prayers! Much love to each of you. I am soooo thankful to Facebook for reconnecting me to so many of my friends and family. I am blessed to share my life with each of you.
When we moved back to Warsaw, IN in June, I had no idea we'd be headed back to the 'Burg so soon! (with in less than a year!!)
For most people, 2008 has been a rough year. For us, 2008 started out wonderfully. We were renting a cozy 3 bedroom house in Williamsburg, KY. Brandon was home, trading currencies full time from his office across the hall from our bedroom; a short commute in his robe, jammies and house shoes. I was home full time taking care of Brandon and getting taste of the full-time domestic life that I love so much.
All of that lasted until the end of May when we moved back to Warsaw, IN to work/teach at a private Christian school. We felt that it was our mission to work at the school while Brandon would continue trading, which would bring in two full time incomes, giving us a chance to save money.
The first of June we moved in with Grandma 'n Grandpa Rugs (who are divorced but still live together... just in case you are just now reading my blog. There are other posts that explain this dysfunction.. if it can truly ever be explained.), thinking we would live with them for a month at the most. We were looking to buy a house. We did not qualify for a mortgage; we looked for and found an investor, who then invested elsewhere. We looked for a co-signer...still nothing. Seven months later we are still living in the basement at G'ma 'n G'pa's.
Between September and October when the markets began to crash, we lost our investment nest of $25K. Brandon was using this money to make money for us to live off of, so basically he was "laid off." I can actually say that with a smile. I mean, let's get real. I CHOOSE to be a diamond. The more pressure there is, the more beautiful and precious I become. I refuse to let circumstance crush me. I refuse to be defeated.
John 10:10 "The Thief [Satan] comes to only to STEAL, KILL and DESTROY; I [Jesus Christ] came that they [You & Me] may have life and have it ABUNDANTLY."
So, no income from trading currencies. The school is paying about 1/3 of what was promised (which is no fault of theirs! Less students = less income for the school.. We knew this coming into it...) BUT!! BUT!! Hear me here... It just is. It is what it is. We are not bitter or angry that any of this has happened. It's just happened. Overall we are only making about 1/4 of the income that we THOUGHT we were going to make when we moved here! Crazy, huh?
Now, here is the miracle:
Our bills are always paid. We are tithing. We have a warm place to sleep. Food to eat. Cars that run. (We've been doing some serious repairs on both cars and have been able to pay cash for them both.) We were able to pay off a $1400 debt. Hackers hacked into one of our bank accounts and stole about $500 plus about $200 of over-draft charges... All has been restored and taken care of.
The Thief comes to steal, kill and destroy, but Jesus Christ came so that I can have ABUNDANT life... Though the Thief comes to hinder our financial growth, God creates miracles in our life to remind us that He takes care of us. Because if we did not belong to Him, all of this could have been much, much worse...
Arrows began pointing OUT of Warsaw...
More miracles:
I got a GOOD full time job in the Burg! Now listen to me... and listen good. Yes - I recognize that our country is experiencing "economic hard times." I hear of people being laid off right 'n left. People keep telling me that down South "jobs are scarce." HOWEVER -- hear me here... I serve a Living God! I serve a Living God who wants to PROSPER me and not to harm me, who wants to give me HOPE and a FUTURE!! (Jeremiah 29:11) I know I have His favor and he blesses us beyond measure. Therefore, I know that this job is divine. I am also believing God for a job for Brandon. If you are sceptical or cynical about him getting/find a full time job, then please keep your mouth shut. Please be sceptical in silence. The rest of you, please be in prayer about him finding a full time job down there.
Also, please be in prayer for us as Brandon and I are separated for a few months. This will NOT be fun. We hate it. But, we feel this is what has to be done to accomplish our goals at this time.
I'll be working in a dentist office doing clinical assistance and office management. I will be learning new things. I look forward to working with people and learning something that is completely different than I have ever learned before.
We plan to settle in Williamsburg. We like the quiet, small town life. Us kids who grew up in our small town fought like the dickens to get out, now... some of us fight to get back in. I'm looking forward to living close to my folks again. And, I am ready to completely settle down, save money and then start our family.
Thanks for all your love and prayers! Much love to each of you. I am soooo thankful to Facebook for reconnecting me to so many of my friends and family. I am blessed to share my life with each of you.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Ice Storm '08
This morning we woke up to the radio saying that several school systems in the area were canceled, which included our private school! We knew an ice storm was coming. The professional weather watchers have been predicting it for about two days. Yesterday at school we had our gift exchange and party refreshments, as well as exams and end of the semester last minute details to finish up. Good thing we did all that yesterday! Our kids (and their parents) blessed us with gift certificates to Starbucks, restaurants, and much more!
We are both honored! Thanks y'all!!
Brandon had to go to work today. He has a second job assisting/working with developmentally disable adults. So, he had to get out in this mess this morning; fortunately, the apartment where he works is only about a mile away! (He called to say he made it safely!! Thank you, Jesus!!) Brandon did not think the storm was that bad. (Of course when you're snuggled up in a warm, dry bed, no ice storm seems bad!!) But, once he stepped outside this morning, he said, "OH! I see why the schools are closed!!"
I'm celebrating this "Ice Day" by drinking coffee, snuggling with the cats, staying in my pajamas all day (which includes NOT wearing a bra!! Is it just me ladies, or can you agree those things are instruments of torture?...slowing cutting their wearer in half...), maybe doing some domestic chores, but only if I really feel like it... and drinking more coffee. Oh, and I might watch a chick-flick since my man will be gone all day. (The Hallmark Channel is such a girlie station! I mean, I'm a girl, but some of those Hallmark movies are oozing with so much estrogen, even I can hardly stand watching!!) And, I'll drink more coffee and browse a holiday magazine and later finish up some Christmas gifts... Sounds like a perfect day.
When I saw the car, I was a bit amazed. It looked like it had been dipped in water, then stuck in the freezer!! We let it warm up for about 20 minutes, then Brandon used his masculine, upper-body strength to chisel the ice off. It's been mostly slush. It's only 32 degrees right now, but we are suppose to get snow on top of this and the temps are suppose to drop. It could be nasty for a few days. But, I'm fine to hold up here in the basement at Grandma 'n Grandpa's for a couple days. As long as I can stay in my pajamas and drink coffee, I'm fine!!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Quiet Sunday Morning: Random thoughts.
It's hard to believe it's been over a month since my last post. It's been crazy here. We were in Bloomington, IN for a wedding a few weeks ago. Then I spent a week in KY visiting family and friends. Then back to Warsaw, school/work.. home...eat... sleep... then do it again.
I spend most of my computer-time on Facebook, which is the most ingenious networking system. For those of you not on FB (as it is abbreviated), I highly recommend it. I think it is for a more "mature" crowd than those on MySpace, which is mostly geared toward teens and music fans. Just two days ago, I had a guy contact me. I knew him in elementary school!! I had not seen or heard from him in *gulp* about 25 years!!!! And, as my "friend base" has grown to over 400 (!!), I've realized that the number of people I have come in contact with, the number of people who have been a part of my life... the number of people I have touched... Well, it's just mind boggling!!
I also want to say I am grateful to those of you who read my blog. I'm sorry it has not been kept up to date. There is so much more I would like to add, but since this is a public forum of sorts, I cannot post everything... not just yet. When you think of us or read this blog, just say a prayer for us. Our marriage is awesome. We are very healthy. So, praise God for that! But, there are other things that need prayer and attentions. Believe with us for miracles and God's divine, perfect will to be done!!
It is snowing here this morning. Big, fluffy flakes. It's quite beautiful, really. Brandon has started working a second job, and is gone - working- this morning. I'm still in my robe, reading, reflecting, writing and praying. The cats are curled up, sleeping. Tilly is in her "den" - a corner of the room with her special blanket and a basket. She alternates from the corner with the blanket, to the basket. If I listen carefully, I can hear her snoring. Mareth-Dale is curled up on a pillow next to me. Her furry, grey paw is curled over her nose, and she is sound asleep, breathing deeply. I enjoy the quiet serenity of cats. They sleep a lot, and are very calming. And, I love the fact that I don't have to take them outside to go potty, especially on a snowy day like today!!
Sometimes, when I think about blogging... I get hung up on the fact that I THINK I need pictures. I love reading other people's blogs, especially when they have pictures to illustrate what they are talking about. So, sometimes I don't blog because I think, "well, I don't have a picture for that" or "I have pictures for a great blog post, but I don't have time to upload them all and write about each of them." Enough of that. I am going to start posting more often. Even if it is random thoughts. Isn't that what a blog is? An online journal.
Tilly has shifted from the corner blanket to her basket. Mareth is still sound asleep, oblivious to my tip-tapping on the keyboard. The twitching of her feet, ears and whiskers lets me know that she is SOUND asleep, probably dreaming.. Ah, to be a cat!!
Hmmm. I suppose that's all for now. I hope all of you are well and prospering! Again, thanks for reading!
I spend most of my computer-time on Facebook, which is the most ingenious networking system. For those of you not on FB (as it is abbreviated), I highly recommend it. I think it is for a more "mature" crowd than those on MySpace, which is mostly geared toward teens and music fans. Just two days ago, I had a guy contact me. I knew him in elementary school!! I had not seen or heard from him in *gulp* about 25 years!!!! And, as my "friend base" has grown to over 400 (!!), I've realized that the number of people I have come in contact with, the number of people who have been a part of my life... the number of people I have touched... Well, it's just mind boggling!!
I also want to say I am grateful to those of you who read my blog. I'm sorry it has not been kept up to date. There is so much more I would like to add, but since this is a public forum of sorts, I cannot post everything... not just yet. When you think of us or read this blog, just say a prayer for us. Our marriage is awesome. We are very healthy. So, praise God for that! But, there are other things that need prayer and attentions. Believe with us for miracles and God's divine, perfect will to be done!!
It is snowing here this morning. Big, fluffy flakes. It's quite beautiful, really. Brandon has started working a second job, and is gone - working- this morning. I'm still in my robe, reading, reflecting, writing and praying. The cats are curled up, sleeping. Tilly is in her "den" - a corner of the room with her special blanket and a basket. She alternates from the corner with the blanket, to the basket. If I listen carefully, I can hear her snoring. Mareth-Dale is curled up on a pillow next to me. Her furry, grey paw is curled over her nose, and she is sound asleep, breathing deeply. I enjoy the quiet serenity of cats. They sleep a lot, and are very calming. And, I love the fact that I don't have to take them outside to go potty, especially on a snowy day like today!!
Sometimes, when I think about blogging... I get hung up on the fact that I THINK I need pictures. I love reading other people's blogs, especially when they have pictures to illustrate what they are talking about. So, sometimes I don't blog because I think, "well, I don't have a picture for that" or "I have pictures for a great blog post, but I don't have time to upload them all and write about each of them." Enough of that. I am going to start posting more often. Even if it is random thoughts. Isn't that what a blog is? An online journal.
Tilly has shifted from the corner blanket to her basket. Mareth is still sound asleep, oblivious to my tip-tapping on the keyboard. The twitching of her feet, ears and whiskers lets me know that she is SOUND asleep, probably dreaming.. Ah, to be a cat!!
Hmmm. I suppose that's all for now. I hope all of you are well and prospering! Again, thanks for reading!
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